well, it has been a long rode, and well, i realized that i have been foolish, i have been spending to much time thinking about who others wanted me to be, but now who i wanted to be. ya im not perfect, i am a bit over weight (260 lbs 6 ft tall, large build) and i have a bad temper from time to time, but i will say it, all i ever really wanted was to be close to someone. i wanted to blow up and let everything out. no one has ever cared enough to let me do it. i honestly want someone to hold onto me, is it that bad?
why cant others see when another person is in pain, a friend, it dosent matter! i have done alot of stupid shit, i have cut mysel